Oh yeah, while I'm speaking to all of you through this:
I thank everybody for praying for my mother and the family. I am so grateful for your thoughts and concerns. It's a stab in the heart to see my mom losing half of her self at a moment like this. It doesn't just hurt her, but all the people that circle around her heart. From my view, I have been greatly scarred and angered by the event of her termination. I'd do anything to make her happy again. I miss the charisma my mom always shined on me. Time and time, I wish I can just go to my mom's old work, and like vandalize the office of her old boss. I'm not talking about her last one, but the one before... However, if I do all of that, I'd be down to that lady's level. So for a good revenge, I finally have a purpose to do good in school... Sure, it's for my own sake, but I want to be successful to avenge my mom's loss. I love her so much, and I will do my best for her. I respect my mom... If others were put in her shoes, I know they would be crazy and be suicidal. But thank the Lord for still capturing her heart. He has given her a lot of people who love her and support her. And all of you (my friends) have been a part of that circle. Thank you. Thank you for keeping her sane. Mommy, if you read this, I love you very, very, very much! Thank you for making me the man I am today. You and Dad do a "pefect" job. I'm sorry there are (very few) times where I run away from the troubles that hurt you... I tend to get scared... It breaks me down to see you sob with pain... But mom, I am not afraid anymore. I will do my best to stay next to you through this process... And mom, I am glad that only a few people are against you, while thousands are holding you. Most of all, I am happy the Lord is carrying you above the flames of depression. I miss you, Mom. I say this even though I see you everyday... I just mean I miss the genuine smile you hold whenever I'm down... And whenever I'm happy... I miss the strong heart and voice you use... Even if they were times when you "nagged" at me. I miss the leadership you place in the family (with Dad.) And out of respect, I hate how "they" have taken a third of you away from us... But Mom, I will steal back that 1/3, and place you full, again. I know, though, the Lord made this happen for a reason. I guess He wanted to let you go from Scripps La Jolla because He needed you in a better place to work at. Another area needs your finesse, Mom. And, I will pray for the two women who destroyed your 22 wonderful years in La Jolla. I will pray that God melts their hearts. I love you, mom. And I love all of you. Most of all, I love You, Lord. Thank You.
posted by J-Rard at 2:48 AM