ok... i came to a conclusion... (sorry btw for those that read the recaps... the good times will roll as soon as i accomplish something...) if i want to "let go" of this feeling... oliver suggested i should just let her know... and if it happens, it happens... i don't know... i don't wanna jeopardize this circle of friendship... that's all... but i do know expression of feelings always takes risks... no matter what... and i know the people that love me will understand everything... so i will say wassup... but hot dang... why? why did she have to tell me she used to like me? man... lol, i know some of the homeys are feeling me... but naw... it's cool... cuz all along, while i was moving on... a piece of my heart was still thinking about her... the masks are removed from my heart's face... you know what's funny, too? it started back from the "what if" question with one of my adings... hehe... i mean... i'm not gonna ask her to be my girlfriend... i'm just gonna say... (in short) "i know how you don't want me to hold back things... so i have to let you know that i like you, again... but, i didn't wanna say anything, cuz i don't want to ruin your happiness... i just want you to stay content... that's all i care about... but i just wanna thank you for everything you..." just read my last blog...! hehe... but seriously... i have to let her know... i want to let her know... it's not a "i want you to be my girlfriend"... even though i do... it's more of a "i just wanna let you know how special you are to me"... but yeah, thank you, everyone for helping me out... much love and respect to y'all... and yea, if it's on target... i'm gonna be soooo happy... but yeah, i'm not looking forward to it, yet... =) clare's right: we'll remain friends... even if it will make her avoid me for awhile... i doubt that, though
posted by J-Rard at 12:21 AM